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mcface. nothing more. nothing less.
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i just fell in love with maroon 5 all over again. and even moreso, i fell in love with myself all over again. SUCH an eye opening weekend. and i think that i right where i want to be. thank you nostalgia. =]
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[19 Sep 2009|01:24am] |
told you.
..."let's go back to our dull lives and search for meaning."
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| hablar-ing at its finest |
[07 Sep 2009|12:49pm] |
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and as I always say...
even if this is fake, its the biggest ego booster of all time. personally, I think this is just way too good to be true. only time will tell.
"blessed is the woman who never expects anything, for she shall never be disappointed"
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[02 Sep 2009|12:29am] |
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last first day of high school..............last first day of college.
nice jeans................nice sideburns.
once a dork.............still a dork.
amazing summer........promiscuous summer.
2005..........2009.
senior year.........senior year.
somethings change. but mostly they haven't. just the age.
this is my welcome to myself to my last "senior" year of anything.
i just hope i still know how to hablar ;)
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[17 May 2009|01:44am] |
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Maybe it's because it's time to grow up. Maybe it's because I'm too distracted. Perhaps though it could be because I've just simply forgotten.
Whatever it is, there statements pertain to two things.
1. This LJ.
2. This Summer.
In regards to 1...
I love writing about myself. It's always an amazing feeling to go back to entries I posted in 2005 and read what I was feeling, what I was doing, what I was into. It's good because without this, I would never remember. Lately though I've neglected the LJ and I really think I'm going to kick myself in the future because of this. This year, my Junior year of college was one of the most intellectually ground breaking years of my life and yet I hardly recorded any of it. But maybe since it was so intellectual is why I just didn't find the need to write here. Nonetheless...my Senior year of COLLEGE is upon me. Next year at this time, it's no joking. Which is why I vow from this day on to acknowledge the LJ at least once a week.........this bring me to number 2
This summer:
I won't say anything. In my mind this make sense but right now I won't say anything. Hopefully I'll get this when I read it later on. Something's different this year. I don't know if it's good or bad, although...it's probably a little bit of both. I haven't had a good summer since 2006 and in reality, this is my last full summer vacation academically ever. I left school on a weird note with a lot to look forward to or maybe be scared of next year and that's got my mind in other places than dwelling on being where so many bad things have happened the past 2 summers. I've grown and learned so much the past year and for sure as hell it has been no joy ride. I'm beginning to become. I'll just leave that at that.
A note on Junior year ending...
Academically, I'm a god. Socially, not so much...but then again I'm not really sure. I always seem to draw wishy washy-ness into my life, meaning...I never get closure. So much was...actually, one thing was left up in the air, and a huge thing at that. I don't know if I was wrong, I don't know if I was right, I don't know if I don't know (yeah, it's that confusing lol)
But I do know one thing, if this one turns out to be a deuch, there's no hope. I will give up and so should every other girl on the planet.
Home is home. I love the smell of summer which is what I got blasted with when I first walked into my room. I think that's what gives me hope. Despite the past two, the smell of summer still makes me nostalgic.
I want to unpack CORRECTLY this year. And I need to get this car situation off my chest. Once those are out of the way, it's clear sailing til August 11th.
For once in a really long time, I can honestly say that it's good to be me right now. Where I am and even more so, who I am. If only everyone else (especially one person) could see that.
I love humid rain. And I can't wait til Conan is back =]
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[07 Mar 2009|02:33am] |
going to west palm beach for a week. enough said.
this was a crazy craze week and i'm pooped.
I got the Senior RA position...I've never accomplished more in my life than i have in the past year. I'm scaring myself.
anyways. florida. yes. =]
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| Live from New York.... |
[20 Feb 2009|11:07am] |
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I don't quite know if I'm ready to make this post...but I have to do it sometime....bear with me here.......
Today, February 20, 2009 is a sad, SAD day for NYC and late night as a whole. At 12:35 AM (which I realize really is Saturday morning, but why get technical) Conan O'Brien takes the Studio 6A stage at Rockefeller Center for the last time before he moves to 11:35 on June 1st and more devastatingly...Los Angeles (yuck). The show will no longer be the same. I don't think that Conan will be the same either. The humor will be different, Conan belongs at 12:35 when college kids like myself have nothing better to do and NEED the Conan humor. But no more. I can't help but think of it as bittersweet as Jimmy Fallon will take over in Conan's spot. Fallon IS one of my husbands and I love him to death, but he is no Conan. We must be optimistic though, perhaps the Conan followed by Fallon line up will be a good one. Jimmy has BIGGGGG shoes to fill, and I think that he can do it...HOPEFULLY he can do it. So many Conezoners are going to need revival after Conan ends tonight.
Conan O'Brien. The string dance.The Horny Manatee. The Walker Texas Ranger lever. The dancing. The Donald Trump Impression. The awesomeness from the writers strike. "If they mated." And so much more...everything, literally EVERYTHING about this man is perfect. Ironically I didn't start watching Conan at 12:35, I discovered him over the summer of.....probably 2002 or 2003, when his re-run of the previous night's show ran on Comedy Central everyday at 12:30 in the afternoon. And that's how I spent every afternoon that summer from 12:30 PM to 1:30 PM, Monday through Friday. Watching this crazy tall pale man with insane orange hair make a complete ass out of himself while I laugh my ass off. There've been times when I can remember myself almost peeing if not ACTUALLY peeing my pants at some of the things that he did. But truely, I think that the moment I fell in love with Conan was with this...
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So this is my tribute to Conan O'Brien. I'm probably not the BIGGEST fan...but damn, do I love the guy. He made my brother and I get along for at least one hour every summer afternoon, he gave me something to talk about with the guy that I had the hugest crush on in high school (sighhhh :-p), he gave me lines, he gave me sarcasm, he grew on me. Conan O'Brien will be missed at 12:35...and even moreso in New York City. It's been a great run Conan, and thank you for all the amazing memories. I shed a tear as I write this but I've got to remember that Conan is not gone for good. I hope and pray that he doesn't change. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CONAN PLEASE DON'T CHANGE. Farewell Conan O'Brien. You've given me a lot, but if there's one thing that I'll ALWAYS remember it's this...
"keep cool mah babies."
"Live from New York! It's late night with CONAN O'Briiiiiiiiien!!!" RIP 2/20/09 <3
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[31 Jan 2009|04:06am] |
i want a penthouse super suite in brooklyn that overlooks the manhattan skyline just for me. i want it to be my getaway from everything. my own personal dance club with all the dunkaroos, jager, STEAK, crab rangoons, WENDYS, heiniken, ARIZONA ICED TEA, CHEESY GORDITA CRUNCHES, and non salmonellaed peanut butter you could possibly imagine. i want funky furniture in funky colors and bathrooms that have tvs in the stalls. i don't want anyone else to know about it or be allowed into it beside the following:
jimmy fallon, brandon, allie, peter, my brother, lizzy, julie carlo, neil patrick harris, crispypants, thomas sheridan, and maybe a fewwwww more to be named later. Oh and of course cristi because she is the only one who i will not have to bribe to read this. i don't want to live here but i want it to be just for me. non dairy creamer will be played once every hour. there will be hookah. and of course ice cream. maybe some cheeseburgers too. the lighting will have to be perfect and no one is allowed to have a headache, throw up, or pass out. i want it to be my place of no boredum. i also want to have a teleportation device built in so that whereever i become bored i can automatically arrive at this place, with these people, and never be bored again. also, there should be a hot tub. and 14 king sized beds. all different colors to fit whatever mood i may be in. with lots of huge fluffy pillows and blankets. it sounds so good.
welcome to megan's head at 4:30 AM.
smirk.
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| far overdue. |
[30 Jan 2009|12:36am] |
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i love not having classes on friday...a fan of being sick, not so much...but nothing to do on fridays...awesome sauce.
a list...
20 things i miss from connecticut winter break (which I for so long thought would be impossible):
-singing non dairy creamer with my brother
-one lane tunnels
-carpet in my bedroom
-not having internet
-waging epic battles with an xbox live & harassing microsoft employees
-dunkin donuts parking lots
-getting paid to sit around and tell stories and facebook all day
-things that happen on new year's day
-radio 104.1
-chasing people around the state...actually, one person *sigh*
-SNOW. like...ACTUAL SNOW. not this icy rainy snowy B.S.
-friendly's
-getting locked out of my house at 2 AM
-the lamest airport in the United States
-listening to teenage boys annoy each other at 5 AM
-skinny girls in sororities called "EAT"
-all you can eat pizza
-wasting approximately 200 gallons of gas
-sears hardware.
-bullshitting in every form of the word.
i'm really happy. but sick.
i want to do something outrageous which isn't really a stranger to me...but, really outrageous.
fun fact. i have never been on an actual date.
i'm so lame.
i need to be braver. if i want to stand out i'm gonna have to go for it. if i don't want to conform, i have to not conform. i want to take risks...smart risks though. (oxymoron?)
i'm getting conceited. it's bad. my sarcasm is coming back to bite me in the ass. i need to be careful.
last night at the staff meeting we had to compare the staff members to a tangible object and give an explaination.
i was called clorox...because i make old things new again <3
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| the greatest lyric ever... |
[01 Jan 2009|11:11pm] |
so what's it gonna be?
are you real to me?
or are you non-dairy...creamer?
-third eye blind
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| dedication: 2008, the year i'm just lucky to have survived. |
[01 Jan 2009|11:50am] |
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so. 2008 was the worst year of my life. my emotional stability was non-existent and i brought most of the bad stuff that happened upon myself. BUT it's all alright. i have hiiiiiigh hopes for 2009. i'm turning 21. and i'll be entering my last year of undergraduate college. biggie. but i think that looking back on 2008 might just make me stronger, and appreciate what i have and the people i have around me.
from about january til june i was an emotional wreck. and i almost went down in flames and took people with me. and i screwed up big time. never in my life will i be able to forgive myself for the stuff i did, but i hope to grow and can guarantee nothing like this will ever happen again.
on may 30th, my 19 year old neighbor was killed in a motorcycle accident. this threw my mind for a whirlwind. i started thinking about what would happen if anyone of my friends that i love ever died. it was rough. i barely knew the kid, but i'm looking at his house right now. it's just weird how random things can be eye openers, and this was def a huge one. i hope you're resting easy nick =]
as i started to feel myself get better emotionally towards the end of the summer, i realized that if i make the most of any situation, i could never be let down. and on the same day i truely realized this, my brother overdosed on ibprofin which made my family bug out, and really, i think the relationship between my mom and brother has never been the same since. that was a rough day, but it was an excellent day too.
thennnn i started to be an RA. massive turning point for me. postive energy = positive stuff. and i really thinks that brings me to where i'm at now. i'm rebuilding from all the stuff i've screwed up and i feel good about doing it. i just had one of the best new year's eves of my life...well actually, new years eve was mediocre, after midnight though it was spectacular ;-)
2009 has started of spectacularly. and like i always say when stuff like what went down around 6 this morning happened, even if it's fake, i know that i'm not a total failure.
2009! bring ittttt. =]
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[25 Dec 2008|01:13am] |
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last christmas eve was a disaster in so many forms for me. but i'm happy to say that i've significantly bounced back from where i was at a year ago. we're not fully there, but like 95 percent better. and christmas is good this year, thusfar at least. it was about 60 degrees when we got out of 10 PM mass so i decided to take a christmas eve jog. AMAZING. wet, windy, short but yet just awesome. it's really the little things that pick me up...even if i don't need a pick me up at all.
well, i recently read a book that none have you have heard of called "I Just Want My Pants Back." I like books that not many people have know about, i think those are the true gems. but there really wasn't even substance to this book which is why i loved it. it was about a normal, less than average mid twenties unemployed dude who smokes pot and parties too hard, told from his point of view. since i've finished this book, i feel like i've had a typewriter in my mind, narrating everything that i observe every second of my life. i really wish that my thoughts could just flow onto paper no matter where i am without me having to type or write. in my mind, i have excellent observations and thoughts, which i think are pretty funny, who knows if anyone else would think that but oh well.
i've realized that i'm getting older, and not SOON, but soon enough i'm gonna be old, and i'm gonna want to remember anything and everything about the prime of my life. that's why i think that it'd be cool if sometimes all the thoughts I have in one day could just be recorded some way, some how. but since that can't happen, i'm learning to truely appreciate. instead of judging, i'm taking it all in over time whether it be a few seconds, or a few days. it makes me happy to be part of this mad, mad world...it's cool to stop and look at it sometime. you should try.
anyways. it is christmas. and there really is something about this year that makes me ecstatic. maybe it's the fact that it's ENDING. what a horrific year for me. excuse me for being selfish there, but really...2008 was just miserable. hopefully this last week i'll be able to keep my spirits up and bang out a spectacular start to 2009. it's looking up. *crosses fingers*
so. this year. no jokes, gimmics, or being crafty in saying this....merry christmas to all. and i mean ALL. even if you have stinky feet. =]
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[21 Oct 2008|05:47am] |
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just had a fire alarm.
while everyone was bitching and moaning i kinda drifted off into my own world. i took a glance at the sky and saw SO many stars. for NYC, it was unbelievable. then I saw a shooting star, in New York City...that's not supposed to happen.
...it's the little things =]
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[19 Oct 2008|01:50am] |
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who are my friends? and why?
(don't ask questions)
maybe a 'friend' shouldn't have to be defined. but i have reasons...and i kinda want the world to know.
my brother- one of the two people i can trust with anything. also, because we can do stupid things like shooting golf balls in the front yard or digging up random artifacts in the woods. i'm proud to say that he's not just my brother, he's also my best friend.
julie carlo- the moment i knew that we would be friends forever was at senior night for volleyball when she gave my farewell speech. and i can live vicariously through her because i really wish i could be in san diego too.
brandon- for not necessarily being my BEST friend, but definetely being my most consistent... meaning that i could not talk to him for months and call him crying and he'd spend 4 hours on the phone with me. and plus, he's brandon...honestly, where would i be without him?
allie- because she got me through high school. nothing says friend like someone who can pull that off.
lizzy- even though way back when she said the same thing about me...she keeps me stable. whenever i need random, i call lizzy. and even though we're going completely different directions, i think that we'll always have the 'random' connection, and i need that.
the entire RA staff- I really feel like I could go to anyone of them just to talk about a problem and their world would stop for me. and yes, every single one of them...even him. especially him, even if he gives shitty advice, at least he'll listen. and that goes for the entire staff, they'll all listen...we're RAs...it's what we're best at ;]
the yearbook staff!- my release from the school day occurs in the UC room 27 because of these people. i like that.
cristi!- because she's my internet best friend!!!! it's really sweet to have one of those :-p also i'm pretty sure she's the only other person on earth who loves jimmy fallon just as much as i do =]
peter- BUTT. enough said.
...and i just realized how bad that might look, but get over it. he's my best. because we've survived it ALL. name it, we went through it...yet we're still bffls. and duckies =]
this is my life. and the people i like. some who i love. i like it, i really do.
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[16 Sep 2008|05:23pm] |
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[09 Sep 2008|09:26am] |
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make that 70+ recently acquired bffs minus one. i guess the more people i meet, the easier it will be to find out who's the biggest asshole of them all. and i think that i very well may have found him. like i say...i'm all for the whole one time thing...but not like the way it was with him and i. what a waste of time on his part though, to be so genuine, so awfully nice to me and then just turn into a complete dick in a matter of hours. most times, i get why guys do what they do...but not this time. he makes no sense. and i don't deserve to get tooled on by him constantly. i wasn't even expecting anything more from him...i was totally down for just being friends with him, but i guess that can't even happen. so this is war. i need to hold my own against the biggest asshole in the entire world.
i think my new favorite song fits perfectly here:
So so what?
I'm still a *rock star*
I got my rock moves
And i don't need you
And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright, I'm just fine
And you're a tool
So so what?
I am a *rock star*
I got my rock moves
And i don't want you tonight
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[21 Aug 2008|10:16pm] |
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....this is going to be one hell of year. I am SO excited. Bring it. =]
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